♥ilovedirtysins♥

you+me=♥

2011-05-29T03:12:00.009+08:00

Hello folks,
one week of leave.
wuhoooo.
can sleep late,can wake up late.
awesome.
soo...
me and my four other awesome friends are planning for a trip to sepang in october
and bali trip next year february.
AWESOME.
hopefully whatever we are planning come true=)
insyallah.
wahh...
have to really really save up now.

Anyway,
photos of us

♥izwan & zaila♥

polaroids.

2011-05-22T16:26:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,

my throat hurts like fuck and there goes the gastric pain again.
so can't smoke for the time being,pffft.
please don't fall sick,please...
so,
five more days of working and i'll be on my one week leave.
jyeahhh.
there's two things that i can't wait for next week:
our birthday dates and our birthday party.
sexciting or what?huhu.

anyway,
some polaroids pictures that i managed to scan using the printer that is not claim by the stupid
ex-boyfriend.
huhu.
thanks for the free printer,fucker=)

-GENTING TRIP-

-STUDIO M HOTEL-

-ZOUKOUT 2010-

2011-05-18T16:03:00.001+08:00

Hello folks,
two awesome movies you should watch=)

2011-05-18T13:14:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
even though we spent the whole night together..
i still just can't get enough of you=)
*honeymoon period*
huhu.

2011-05-15T18:21:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
i think things are kinda in a mess at the moment.
confussion.miscommunication.assumption.misunderstood.
cut the damn story short,
i think it's all unnecessary/unwanted and childish shits.

you know what?
i shall not say much and and shall not get involve.
cuz i got no issues and not even involve at the first place.

and about our birthday thingy...
me and wan would definitely appreciate it if all our lovely friends could come and just
enjoy our birthday together with us=)
guys..
no matter what,
we just hope that you people are coming okay?=)

2011-05-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
i need to learn how to smile=)..
cuz i really really have problem smiling at work.pffft.
what's there to smile sia.
wthell.

oh well,
still..
just SMILE=),zaila.
*roll eyes*

night bitches.

saturday night at zirca=)

2011-05-08T13:59:00.017+08:00

Hello folks,
saturday evening with him.
at night zirca-ing with girlfriends.
when was the last time i went there sia...
saw a few familiar faces.
faces whom i once chilled/met before when i was still with that fucker.
oh well,
awesome music.
had fun dancing all night long although i went home with a really bad pain on my feet.
home at 6am.

i think that..
if you really are a friend i will appreciate it if you keep it strictly just friend
and not more than just a FRIEND.
please know your limit,
thank you.

Anyway,
happy mother's day,dearest ibu.
ily.

bye.

♥

-hanah & me=)

-jon & me-

=(

2011-05-06T21:43:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
she told my dad that i don't love her anymore.
said that her children don't give a shit about her either.
she also said that this year mother's day is gonna be a sad one for her cuz nobody cares.
tell me,
am i to blame for that?
every year without fail,every mother's day i would splurge to buy gift for her but
not this year.
i'm just still too fucked up about what she have done to me the other time.
i still can't get over that embarrassing and humiliating incident.
anyway,
thanks to that son of a bitch again.
till now i still don't know just what the fucking fuck he said to her till
she acted that way the other day.
may you have a miserable life,die and rot in hell,fucker.
pfffft.

it's been like...what
almost two months of not talking.
and seriously speaking..
i just don't give a fucking shit.
i used to miss her if i never get to see or talk to her,
but now,i just don't give a fuck.
i'm not saying that i hate her.
just that...
i think that i'm still holding grudge about that incident.
maybe i can forgive but i will never forget,never.

it's true,people say no matter what she's still my mom.
she's the one who gave birth to me.
but,
when she hit me the other time publicly in front of everyone,
did she even for a second have a thought that person she hit so badly is her daughter?
nahhh,don't think so.

well...
i don't know till when this gonna continue.
cuz..
like mother,like daughter
both very stubborn and ego.
i mean,VERY.
dad asked me to make the first move to start talking to her.
i just said no and plus i really got nothing to say to her also.
so...
i guess i'm still gonna be all ego and stubborn about it.
huhu.

we will talk and start to acknowledge each other,one fine day
just...
not now,not yet.

guess,
this would be the last family photo we gonna take.
=(

2011-05-02T20:57:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,
was checking out old pictures in my lappy and found some old camwhore photos few years back.
damn,
i miss those camwhoring days.

2011-05-02T02:12:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
soo...
hotel booked.
car booked.
cake ordered.

it's just a month away now..

hope everything goes as planned.
hope it's the best birthday celebration i'm gonna have=)

and the most sexciting part is...
celebrating the special occasion with
♥you♥

well,
i can't deny that...
i'm soo head over heal for you now.
and the feelings just getting better and deeper.
and...
it's good that we are taking things nice and slow.
and letting everything goes naturally=)
and if i were to be in a relationship the next time round..
there is no other guy i wanna be with except you
heh.

okay,
this is so mentel.

bye.

♥

2011-04-25T21:27:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
those words you told me...
i think it's the sweetest thing a guy ever said to me=)

♥

mud kai turn TWENTY-FOUR=)

2011-04-23T14:23:00.011+08:00

Hello folks,
hotel birthday party at studio M hotel with the awesome people last night.
HAPPY TWENTY-FOURTH BIRTHDAY,KHAIRUL!

soo can't wait for our turn.
wuhuuuu.

-birthday boy=)

2011-04-17T03:22:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,
random shots by a friend of my friend.
such a lovely shots.
i like=)

-zalikha & zaila-

♥

2011-04-15T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
sometimes when i am all alone,
i will sit back and do some soul searching.
i will tend to recall back about my past relationships.
like...
why did it end?
where has it gone wrong?
who's to blame?
is it me?him?or maybe the both of us?
it set me thinking...
somehow,i feel that the problem lies on me,maybe?
sometimes,
its just so sickening to even think about relationship.
i always said that i no longer know how relationship works anymore.
well,maybe i do know how just that..
i'm just too sturborn,too ego.
the fact that..
i know i must change for the better but i'm not doing anything about it.
and it got me thinking...
even if i have a few relationships after this and i'm still not changing,
the ending will still be the same.
like...
you want to meet or find the right guy but you yourself are not even having the right attitude.

i keep telling myself,
IF i would to be in a relationship in the future and if i were to find myself a cute guy who i really like/love ,
i will change for the better.
serious shit,i have to.
*i cross my fingers tight*
i'm soo sick and tired of being in a long term relationship and then at the end...
it ended.
such a waste.

like,
hello i'm twenty-three already,
where got time to keep changing boyfriend..
you think what?secondary school time is it??
hoho.

well can't deny..
it's fun being all single again cuz i got all the freedom to do whatever i want and go wherever i want to.
i am really enjoying every moment of my single hood life.
but,
somehow,i know it would be much fun to be in a relationship.

okay now..
shall stop with all these confession talking.
huhu.

mizs lolalita=)

2011-04-15T21:43:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
TGIF.
four hours of work for tomorrow.
shit.
i'm so so tired.
i'm so gonna let loose tomorrow night with my girls.
jyeahhh.

anyways,
random shots.

goodnight bitches.

2011-04-13T13:26:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
so,
recently i met up with..
my closest cousin,my first secondary school lover and my sec sch mate.
after for soo many donkey years of not meeting so i finally managed to catch up things with them.
it was great to meet them and see how much we have grown since the last time we met.
jiji,i see you this coming saturday
let's go dancing dancing yaa=)
izzat and hadi meet up soon for some outing okay.

so,
done with my short trip..
next,
preparation and booking for me and wan's birthday.
yeahhhh.

oh wells,
back to work tomorrow.
sien.
work is getting sucky for me.
irritating patients and some fucked-up colleague never fails to pissed me off at work.
pffft.
fuck them all laa.

and ohhh..
have i not tell you that..
life is AWESOME being single and falling inlove all over again.
the feeling just ohh so great=)
hehe.

alright,
shall stop my nonsense now.

sayonara.

-OUR RIDE-

-LAST DAY OF OUR GETAWAY-

-SUNDAY BREAKFAST-

crossroad trip=)

2011-04-11T23:53:00.019+08:00

Hello folks,
i'm back from my short getaway trip with my AWESOME peeps.
i really really had a great,fun trip with them though i know it's just a short trip to KL and Genting.
still,
i enjoyed every moment of it=)

Anyways,
these are some of the photos from the trip.
too many photos were taken too lazy to upload it all here.
can check out more at my facebook..
that if you are in my friends list laa.
hoho.

zal,fariz,izwan,wan
let's plan for another getaway yawww!
hope to make it happen,guys=)
insyallah.
gotta save,save save money.

will be back to work only on thursday.
jyeahhh.

okay bye!

2011-04-03T19:05:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
six more days to our short gateaway,
weeeeeeee!

2011-04-01T12:38:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
it tickled me when i recall back what just happenned last tuesday.
so dramatic or what.
i feel like i was being confronted by a fatass minahrep at macdonald
then came a tamil hero trying to 'protect' me from being beaten up by the fatass.
muahahha.
its hurtful and embarrasing that it happenned publicly.
but...
oh well,
come to think of it again,what's life without some drama?

hoho.

i think he purposely did all these.

i think he have already planned it all,you know like he wants to revenge on me.
damn,he is one motherfucking sore loser.
well,the problem with him is that
he just can't accept the fact that it's all over between us.
that i fucking don't want him in my life anymore.
that there is no hopes and dreams for us.
he just fucking can't accept it.
such a fucking sore loser.
and i also feel that..
somehow,it hurt him to see me happy and getting over everything and moving on.
because my life is good without him around.

anyway,
to my dearest KHAIRUL ASLAM
it does'nt really matter to me what was your motive,
whether you did it on purpose or that was your way of getting back on me.
i'm cool,
because at the end of the day i'm glad that its FINALLY over between us.
and i get what i want,that is...
YOU OUT OF MY LIFE.
you are really really a big mistake in my life.
i swear,you really are and i never felt soo unlucky to have met someone like you.
can't believe that i've wasted one year and five months of my life.
i pity myself.
but im gonna feel more pity and sorry for the next girl after me.
huhu.

oh well,
let's just fuck the past and move on now.
all single and having all the freedom.
i think love is in the air for me.
haaaaa...
it feels good to fall inlove and have the butterflies feelings again.
haha.
okay,shall not say much here.
let's just keep the rest a secret.
hush hush now.

to hell with the EX,
hello new crush
=)

ohh wait,
let me end this lovely post by posting my favourite photo of us
as a memory,a sweet sexy one.
pffft.

my weekends=)

2011-03-28T19:45:00.008+08:00

Hello folks,
my weekend was great with the usual people=)
pictures time!

-nad,zai,zal-

-zai & zal-

-fariz,zalikha,izwan,zaila-

fish spa session=)

random.

2011-03-23T19:46:00.001+08:00

Hello folks,

CHANEL=)

2011-03-23T19:40:00.001+08:00

Hello folks,
so cute or what?
i want i want!
huhu.

my beautiful girlfriends=)

2011-03-23T15:29:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
so like FINALLY the three of us met up after so long.
i'm soo happy to see them=)
girl's talk,as usual.
life.relationship.boys.crush.family.
anyway,
i had a great day with my gorgeous girlfriends=)
for now,
do check out our camwhore photos:

bye.

nur izzati

nurrashidah

siti nurzaila

2011-03-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
i think i got a crush on you.
i think you're cute.
*wink*

saturday girl's day out=)

2011-03-20T08:57:00.007+08:00

Hello folks,
Saturday with my two lovely ladies=)
nad and zal.

2011-03-16T21:25:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,

i cant wait for april and june to come.

hopefully what we have planned go smoothly.

Anyway,

my camwhore pictures are taken from my new olympus digital camera.

2011-03-08T21:25:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

make it happen,please?

2011-03-06T20:24:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
i don't really play with my DSLR nowadays.
cuz its kinda bulky to bring around.
i want a digital camera,a waterproof one would be great.
polaroid,film camera,DSLR..
a waterproof digital camera would complete the collection.
huhu.
i'm still inlove with olympus PEN camera.
such a cool,stylish camera to own but so expensive=(
huhu.

bye.

miss vain=)

2011-03-06T18:35:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,
i'm die-ing to go USS and bali.
somebody!please take me there pleaseee!
huhu.
anyway,
camwhore pictures of me.
(what's new..huhu)

about relationship?
i don't wanna talk about it.
soo sick and tired to even write bout it.
i'm still considering myself single though..
although we are still going out and doing the normal things we always do.
so,
if people or guys would ask me about my status,
i'm telling them,i'm single.
got it?

bye.

2011-02-21T09:39:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,
i'm on leave for today.
it feels good to be at home on a weekdays. but too bad it's back to work tomorrow,fuck.
bye.

zalikha&zaila

2011-02-20T12:48:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
i'm losing all interest about the future with you.
nothing seems interest me at this point of time.
so,i guess..
whatever plans that does'nt work out or happen in the future with you,
it does'nt really matter to me anymore.
cuz i'm losing all the excitement.
i was'nt even expecting it either.
so let's just FUCKIT.

bye.

2011-02-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

-me&miumiu-

gong xi fa cai

2011-02-04T17:50:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,
here comes the public holidays.
wuhooo.
out with the usual,went bbq-ing at kent ridge
and as usual camwhoring session again.
huhu.

01022011

2011-02-02T17:02:00.010+08:00

Hello folks,
celebrated his twenty second birthday at harry's bar riverside point
with his bar friends.
bought him an ice cream cake to blow his candles.
it was one hell of a night for the birthday boy.
it was the first time i saw him soo drunk like that.
one word:ugly.
huhu.

Anyway,
hope bb enjoyed his night.
enjoyed getting all drunk.
the birthday cake and the gifts.

once again,
happy twenty-two birthday,boyfriend=)

2011-01-23T20:08:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
it's sunday.
and it's a rot at home day for me,as always.

anyway,
anyone seen my mom?
she has been MIA for two days now,since friday.
i'm kinda worried now.
still not home yet.
text,no reply.
call,no respond.
mommy where the hell are you..?
huhu.

i can't wait to go holiday!
i wanna go bali and shop shop shop.
wahh best.
make it happen,pleaseeeee!

oh well,
pictures again....

bye.

2011-01-23T00:50:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,
my saturday was well spent with him.
got him an advanced birthday gift.

well,
hope you like it bb=)

lovelove you. muahh.

2011-01-21T20:56:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
VANITY,is my middle name.

2011-01-18T21:01:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
ever felt like you're sick and tired of everything that is going on?
you feel like you've lost interest.
like that's nothing much to talk about,nothing much to do anymore.
things seems so dull and boring,
like you feel that it's heading nowhere.
like you're just wasting time.
there's nothing to look forward to.
i just don't feel the connection there,
like we are two different people.

fuck this relationship.
i rather be single.

i miss my old relationship.
pfffft.
feelin so fucked-up.

just so out of love right now.
i just wanna fuck everything and stop wasting time.
i'm not sure if that's the right thing to do,
but,
i'm just not feeling it anymore.
so why waste time?

saturday night out=)

2011-01-18T10:43:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,

nettnett&miumiu

2011-01-15T16:07:00.008+08:00

2011-01-02T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
seriously speaking,
that's nothing exciting about going to a brand new year.
i mean,
what so exciting about it?
it only mean that you gonna get a year old.
and whether the year is gonna be good or bad one for you,
is actually all up to you to make it happen.

speaking of turning a year older,
i'll be twenty-three.
goshhh.

and i also realized at this age,
people are all getting hitched.
getting engage,getting married.
suddenly,
i see quite a number of couples i know posting pictures of their
engagement in facebook.
all going to the next stage of their relationship already.
i'm just happy for them.

well,
not much of a pressure though.
as much as i would love to be in their place..
but the fact that,
is just not the right time yet for me.
not even sure if i'm with the right person to go to the next stage of a
relationship.

to make sure that i'm gonna be with the right person to spend my whole life with,
that's more important.

and,
maybe it's best not to have any or much expectations.
i would prefer to just go with the flow.
to avoid dissapointment in life.

2010-12-30T21:46:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,
so..
twenty eleven is just round the corner.
another brand new year with a new chapters of life.
wonder just how twenty eleven gonna be for me.
hmmm...
well,
i'm not gonna ask much.
just hoping that life will get better.
just hoping that i'll be a better person.

and also,
to stay gorgeous as always.
can?
huhu.
so vain.

2010-12-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
zoukout is over,

so what's up for new year eve?
still don't know yet.
no rotting at home pleaseee..
like last year i was at home and it was pathetic.
pfffft.

Anyway,
party people.

Awesome weekend!

2010-12-13T05:26:00.017+08:00

Hello folks.

my weekend was well spent at costa sand resort,sentosa.

i had an awesome weekend with him and his friends.

zoukout this year,was worth the money.

enjoyed it.

super sleepy and hungry now.

lucky me

i'm on leave today.

will be meeting zalikha and shazelina at town.

it's been so long since i saw shaz.

lots of gossips and catching up later.

for now,

check out my weekend camwhore photos.

huhu.

bye bitch.

-us-

the couples=)

-us by the pool-

-qisha&me-

-zaila,hyrul,azril-

-me&mira-

-me,hyrul,azril-

-bed the four of us sleep-

-the pool-

-costa sand resort-

-my manicure-

2010-12-04T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

i just got a letter asking me to pay an outstanding bill of $700plus for my singtel line which

i no longer use and the fuckin sim card is not even with me.

it's with that dumbfuck ex boyfriend of mine.

i thought he's doing something about it?

i thought case close already?

still got outstanding huh?

was told that he's not using the line either.

i don't fuckin care because i still remember when we broke off,

he said that he will be RESPONSIBLE for it.

hello dumbfuck,

why ain't you doing something about it eyy?

i'm soo not gonna pay for it.

cuz this singtel bill is your responsibility NOT mine.

ohh shit

don't tell me i have to hunt for you like a tai-long again?

i ain't got time for that.

and i don't even wish to get all contact with you again.

ohh come onn....

you're such a pain in my ass.

Anyway,

since i can't send you a message via facebook.

cuz you know,

he actually deleted me and also blocked me.

huhu.

isn't that so childish of him?

pfffft.

hell yea it is.

well,

who cares.

back to what i wanna say ...

look,

hello dumfuck EX boyfriend of mine,

if you still happen to check out this blog of mine,

here's a message for you:

DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

FCUK YOU,FUCKER.

2010-12-01T16:58:00.003+08:00

Hello gorgeous,

people say,

it's useless being in a relationship when there's no trust.

like,

nothing good gonna work out.

so,

why am i still here?

why am i still wasting time sticking around?

maybe,

i should just...

SGH D&D

2010-11-28T12:01:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,

last night D&D was at resort world,sentosa.

it was my first time btw.

it was fine,nothing much.

i think the lucky prize gifts were pretty awesome.

but no lucky for me.

the first prize was a travel voucher worth of 3.5k.

coolshit or what?

okay,

so over and done with d&d.

(such a boring event,yawn...)

next,

zoukout babey.

zoukout please rock my 2010,please?

huhu.

bye bitch.

- the menu-

camwhore pictures

2010-11-24T23:01:00.006+08:00

Hello gorgeous,

nothing much.

just some random camwhore photos posted here.

well as you people know that i'm such a camwhore queen.

so yeaaaa..

Anyways,

can't wait for my first d&d with sgh this coming saturday and...

i'm more sexcited for zoukout la.

eleven december please come faster.

huhu.

and this whole week at work

i swear its gonna be a hell for me.

i hate doing cashier duty.

fuck all those irritating patients la.

make we swear the whole week.

okay bye.

camwhore with my favourite...

bitch=)

pussycat=)

love=)

2010-11-18T21:02:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

sometimes the love is there

sometimes it fade.

it never seem to stay.

why?

my pussycats

2010-11-17T14:39:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

meet

NETTNETT & MIUMIU.

-NETTNETT-

-MIUMIU-

2010-11-13T21:40:00.010+08:00

Hello folks,

you know,

somewhere,somehow,

i think i'm already makin some small efforts.

not much though but atleast i'm trying.

huhu.

still with the mood swings but tryin to lessen the egos and the stubbornness.

but you know i love you.

Anyways,

i miss camwhoring.

it's been so long.

feel like having a lingerie shoots.

huhu.

bye bitch.

Awesome friday night.

2010-11-13T11:31:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,

yesterday night was at:

Zouk.Attica.Forbidden city.

and Attica was Awesome.

those house music the dj spin makes me so can't wait for zoukout.

i like.

and home sweet home at six in the morning.

and i think i'm just gonna rot at home on this fine saturday.

and spend the day with my nettnett=)

wedding affair

2010-11-10T19:24:00.010+08:00

Hello folks,

i think there's something wrong with the uploading of photos here.

irritating or what.

anyways,

congrats to kak jun and abg wan for their wonderful wedding last sunday.

i also want a grand wedding like them.

huhu.

ohh you know what?

this is unbelievable,

after one year plus disappearing,

i've found my favourite cat,

NETTNETT!

god knows how much this pussycat means to me.

bye.

family affair

2010-11-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

sometimes,

it's just so sickening to listen to them criticizing one another everytime i have a one on one conversation with them.

why can't they just stop being ego and sturborn

why can't they just fucking sit down and talk and plan what to do next?

is it just so freaking hard to do that?

i mean,come on laaa...

this is like a fucking serious issue.

it's about DIVORCE we talking about here.

it's not a joking matter.

it basically involve everything in our damn life.

right now,

i'm just worried about what's gonna happen after the divorce.

our home,especially.

that is all that matter to me.

i don't wanna give a fuck about what they wanna do after that.

that one is non of my concern.

they are matured and old enough to handle their own life.

huhuhu

let's just see what's next.

bye.

2010-11-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

tell me,

why is it just so fucking hard to just trust?

why?

did i not try to trust?

i tried but i just can't.

it seems the hardest thing to do.

sometimes it's just frustrating to think about it.

and that's why..

when i'm in doubt or feeling paranoid,

i will just fuck it and care less about those feelings.

just have the whatever attitude and dont think much.

yeaa,whatever.

anyways,

can't wait for zoukout.

buying ticket soon.

payday please come faster,i need you badly.

huhu.

2010-10-29T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

well,

what shall i say now..

it's kinda complicated.

and i want it to be that way for now.

let's just let lose for awhile.

take one step at a time and enjoy life as it is.

bye.

2010-10-28T21:33:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,

just some random camwhore photos.

bye bitch.

2010-10-27T20:58:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

so how's life so far?

so far so good i must say.

been lazy to work lately.

sometimes i tend to get sick and tired of working.

anyways,

i'm kinda sexcited about zoukout in december.

will be buying the ticket early november.

jyeahhh.

please please hope i enjoy this year zoukout.

cuz i did'nt enjoyed last year.

and

boy ohh boy,

i need to start saving up already.

so many sexciting plans on my mind.

and i really really want all of them to come true.

i hope we can make it happen=)

insyallah.

and to make it happen,

i really really need to discipline myself to do that cuz...

that is like my biggest weakness.

huhu.

ouhh,fuck it.

let's just do it.

bye.

jurong bird park

2010-10-17T12:07:00.015+08:00

Hello folks,

my saturday was well spent at jurong bird park with the couple,

zalikha and fariz.

it was a great trip there.

i really enjoyed my day despite the hot hot weather.

gess the weather was such a bitch.

was sweating like hell.

and we end the day watching dvds at my crib till three in the morning.

now it's pictures time:

151009

2010-10-15T08:20:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

it's our ONE-YEAR anniversary today.

wo aii niee,khairul aslam=)

catlover

2010-10-13T20:10:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

i want a pussycat so badly.

i miss having cats around me.

so cute!

gerammmm!

and,

i am soo missing my nettnett=(

isn't this pussycat so adorable?

i wish i could own it.

ggrrrr!

random talk

2010-10-09T08:17:00.009+08:00

Hello folks,

mom just bought a samsung digicam and i'm lovin it.

feel like getting one for myself too.

cuz she said she don't wanna share it with me.

haha.

lokek uhh ibu.

at times carrying dslr wherever i go can be a pain too.

Anyways,

you know whats the problem lies between you and me?

we don't really communicate.

be it mouth to mouth or heart to heart talk.

the thing is that..

i dont really fancy having conversation with you face to face.

and thats's the reason why i prefer having it via texting.

be it when i'm angry.

be it when i feel that something is not right.

be it when i'm having doubts.

be it when i have something to tell yoi.

i don't know.

it's just that everytime when you're already infront of me,

i'm just speechless.

i'm left with nothing to say.

it's like my mind gone blank.

when actually i have lots to tell you.

about my feelings,my thoughts..

about you,us,this relationship.

i rather keep it to myself and write it on my little dear diary.

to be frank,

i'm not like this back then in my three years relationship.

and i dont know why im like this now.

put aside my sturborness,my ego,my hard-headed attitude as you say it

i was still all these back then what..

but this relationship is abit different for me.

im getting more sturborn,ego and hard-headed.

why?

i'm not comparing.

i know you don't like it when i do that.

i'm just saying.

bye.

2010-10-04T21:01:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,
boy ohh boy,
can you believe it,
it's october already?
geeeesss..

♥151010♥,
we gonna turn one year.
that's fast.
we have yet to plan what we gonna do on our first year.
must check our pocket first.
huhu.

b,can we like go to mbs and book one night there??
i wanna swim on that damn swimming pool and see the nice view from the top.
it's gonna be awesome.
hehe.

i wanna club with my gfs.
i wanna go zoukout.
i wanna go bali/phuket.

there's so many thing i wanna do,places i wanna go.
but so little cash to spend.
that's just sad=(

why was'nt i born rich?
huhu.

money.money.money.
pffft.
sien.

bye.

wedding

2010-10-03T21:16:00.008+08:00

Hello folks,
my weekend was spent with his family and relatives.
and...
finally i got the chance to wear my red baju kebaya.
huhu.

i can't wait to meet up with hui ting shidah this coming wednesday.
let's go dancing girls=)

bye.
sleeping beauty is off to bed now.

-with kak jun-

-fatin&me-

ilovecameras

2010-09-26T10:06:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,
me: b,i macam nak beli camera baru uhh,EP-1 ke...

him: nak camera baru la pulak,camera film,polaroid pon tak terpakai kat dalam robok you nak camera lagi?

me: yelah yelah,lelaki kalau membebel bising uh.

hoho.
but actually,i kinda agree with him laaa.
haha.
my plastic film camera and polaroid are like untouch inside my wardrobe.
i never use them.
but but...
it would be cool to own an olympus EP-1.
heh=)
see how laa,after i'm done with my canon dslr.
insyallah.

2010-09-25T06:14:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

universal studio trip with my dearest colleagues last friday night.

well,nothing much though.
but still,i had fun with them=)

the fireworks was beautiful,i like.

Anyway,

guess mom have already make up her mind huh.

it's dissapointing,sad,scary.

i can't believe this really really is happening to my family.

what's in for the future for us?

i'm not worried about myself but my two little brothers.

but thank god they are big enough to understand what's happening.

it's sad,really sad laaa.

that's all i can say.

i never thought that it could come to that extend.

i'm sad.

what next???

i wonder.....

it's scary to even think about it.

i worried for my dad.

what if he is really really out from the house.

where would he go and stay??

i know he has not been a good father.

but neither is my mom.

but they are everything to me.

and i'm close to both.

i'm not gonna side any of them.

because i know,both make mistakes.

i love them too much that i wish they never make this ugly decision.

i mean it's like the scariest nightmare for every children to see their parent seperate.

it is.

maybe he's not that of a good father to me and my brothers.

but hell yeaaa he's the most sporting and open-minded daddy ever.

i love him although he likes asking money from me.

haha.

okay,

i'm still sad.

i love you,mom dad.

okay,

pictures time:

2010-09-19T16:28:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

i only happens to know about this coolshit party few days back.

huhu.

i bet it's gonna be an awesome event.

i envy those who are going.

bitch you,hmmph.

anyways,

looking on the bright side,

i still have zouk-out to look forward to...

i guess?

huhu.

bye bitch.

2010-09-15T16:31:00.001+08:00

Hello folks,

lili and lola.

2010-09-12T20:54:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,

camwhored after for so long not doing it.

and guess what,

i've officially lost my camwhoring skill already.

huhu.

anyways,

fuck

it's back to work tomorrow.

why must the fuckin time past so fast.

*sigh*

must see all those dumb fuck patients.

can you believe it?

i did'nt even go out for raya on these three days.

i have'nt even wear my red baju kebaya sia.

wtfuck.

100910

2010-09-10T14:03:00.008+08:00

Hello folks,

raya was nothin much for me and family.

like i told you before this year is nothing like those years we had.

but i'm fine with it because i'm not even feeling it.

it's like any other days i had.

in fact,i was sleeping the whole day.

i don't know,been tired and sleepy,lazy.

i've make my decision and i'm gonna stick to it.

and i'm glad that you understand and finally grant my wish.

i just thought that maybe that's the best for me and i know it's not for you.

but...

i don't wanna continue faking it.

i shall not stay for the sake of staying.

and get stuck with you just because i was force to and for the wrong reasons.

that's just not the way.

i'm sorry to spoilt your raya.

i really do apologized.

you asked me to think about the decision again.

i'll see about it.

that's so many things on my mind right now.

but for now,

it's best to go seperate ways.

we can still be friend.

we can still go on a date.

if you want to,i'm fine with it.

2010-09-09T12:48:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

well,

it's the eve of hari raya.

i'm at work now.

my morning was shitty.

don't wanna talk about it.

yeaaa,it's my fault,again.

i know.

sorry for being a fucked-up human being.

what to do,that's just me.

whatever.

i'm soo not in the raya mood actually.

but i would like to wish all my muslim people:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.

maaf zahir dan batin,minta ampun minta maaf banyak-banyak.

bye

bye.

2010-09-08T09:20:00.001+08:00

Hello folks,

i watched vampire sucks yesterday with boyfriend and aidil.

super funny.

a movie that gonna make you laugh your ass off.

bye.

2010-09-05T07:02:00.004+08:00

Hello folks,

so,

four more days to hari raya.

excited?,hmm nahh not really.

nothing much to look forward about it actually.

but i bet this year would be different then those previous years for my family.

anyways,

but i do looking forward going party-ing and meeting up my girlfriends=)

girls,let's plan up something yaww.

and also,

hoping to go for a short trip end of the year.

insyallah.

anyway,

can u believe it,it's september already??

my godnesss.

super fast or what?

soon it will be 2011 and i'll be twenty-three.

my ohh my.

2010-08-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hello folks,

i miss camwhoring/photoshoots.

after raya snapsnap my picture okay?

bye.

i♥katespade

2010-08-24T20:25:00.006+08:00

Hello folks,

i just wanna own one of these kate spade bag.

i hope i can.

just gotta save up for it.

wish me luck on that.

hah.

lazy sunday

2010-08-15T16:55:00.005+08:00

Hello folks,

photos from my polaroid and film camera.

Anyway,

break fast at bf's crib yesterday with his parent.

and damn,

i felt soo out of place.

maybe still nervous and still not used to it yet.

oh well,

have a nice lazy sunday people.

bye.

tanning with love

2010-08-09T22:17:00.010+08:00

Hello folks,

went sun-tanning with boyfriend.

and as usual,

camwhoring session.

bye.

our new lappy=)

hyrulove

saturday night

2010-08-08T09:14:00.011+08:00

Hello folks,
flea market = two cute dresses and belt.
collect electronic stuffs at courts.
dinner at pizzahut.
sheesha at haji lane.
=
lots of pictures taken.

go view:

ilovepussycat.com

zal's new pussy.

myfavboy & me.

my favgirl & me.

iwantblackberrystorm=)

2010-08-05T20:28:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,
can i change to this blackberry storm?
please pretty pleaseeee.
so cool.
a bit like iphone but iphone is too typical already.
everywhere i go i see iphone.
it's a typical phone for typical people.
pffft.

bye.

randoms.

2010-07-31T16:38:00.004+08:00

so,have you found yours yet?

cause action speaks louder than words.
cause it's not easy to impress me.

but then again,
not all guys are the same but it's better to take cautions.

have a nice saturday,people.
bye.

shikin's engagement

2010-07-28T19:39:00.008+08:00

Hello folks,
so these are the pictures for last sunday occasion.
meet all dad's relatives.
did'nt talk much as usual.
can't be bothered la huh.

it was also boyfriend first time meeting my paternal side.
some starts asking already when will be my turn.
blah blah blahhhh.
typical question frequently asked by the aunties.

some of my relatives said that i'm getting chubby.
jyeahhh=)
good good.

anyways,
met up with my cousin,jiji.
and as usual we update each other about our life and stuffs.
sad to know she has already broken up with the fiance.
what a waste.

and when she told me her story,
somehow it reminds me of how my three years end.
almost the same shit.
huhu.

SHIKIN.

DADDY&ME.

-ME&BF.